My Trainer Hates Me!

This is only the second time that I've met with Ben for my training sessions. I don't know what I could have done in that short time to make him hate me so much. What other reason would he have to try and kill me today??!! Ok, so he did not literally try to murder me, but it sure felt like I was dying.  


All jokes aside, I had an amazing work out today. By amazing, I don't mean that I  was smiling the whole time and throwing flowers around while fireworks were going off. I mean I was sweating like a pig over a camp fire. My legs were burning. My body was yelling and cursing at me. Man, I thought I was working hard while I was at the gym on my own. Boy was I ever wrong! I was pretty excited about the fact that I get an extra free session this month, until BEN told me what he had in store for me. Starting next week I will be constantly sweating. I won't be getting a break in between machines or in between reps. He gave me a taste of the torture that he has in store for me, starting next Thursday at 10:30 AM.  I did a machine to work out my back. After a set of 15, that had my arms burning, he made me do 20 squats. Then another set, 20 more squats and another set. Then he put me on the leg press, a machine I used to call my favorite (until today). He put the weight at 160, 160( I wish I could caps lock 160)! By the time I was done doing 3 sets of 20, I was contemplating getting my legs amputated so that I did not have to do that machine again.  In reality, even though my body burned during the work out, I felt great afterwards.


I got to the gym 30 minutes before my training session so that I could do 30 minutes of cardio. At 10:00am I met Ben on the 1st floor, we talked about a few things and then he took my measurements. We looked through my workout log and talked about my cardio. He told me that I need to add a 3.0 incline to my walk. My days of walking without an incline are over. After all that, we got to work. Once I finished my strength work out, I headed back upstairs to do the other half of my cario, with an incline. I could barely make it up the stairs. The first 2 minutes of the walk seemed easy. I laughed at the pathetic incline, thinking it felt no different than my normal walk. Again, I was wrong. Before I got to 5 minutes my legs were screaming again. I pushed on until I hit 10 minutes. After 10 minutes I had to stop. I stretched my legs out a little, drank some water, and began another 10 minutes. Once I got to the 20 minute mark, I stopped again, stretched and started on my last 10 minutes. My breaks in between the 10 minutes were probably no longer than 30 seconds. I know I will eventually get to the point where I can walk the full 30 minutes at an incline, but for now, I need a small breather in between.


When I finished my cardio (for the second time) I was so relieved. I wiped off my treadmill and headed down stairs. I never thought that walking down stairs could be so hard. My legs felt like jello. I contemplated just laying down and rolling down the rest of the stairs, but people might stare. I made it to the locker room, splashed some water on my face and headed home. 


Hopefully everyone saw the humor in my post today. My work out was more intense today than it usually is and it did hurt like hell, but once it was over, I felt great. For the record, I really do like my trainer. He keeps me thinking positive and constantly tells me that he is excited about how hard I am working. He mentioned to me today that he knows I am working hard because he sees me in the gym a lot. The fact that he acts so excited for me really does help me. It keeps me thinking positive and gets me excited to reach my goal. I know this is all for a good cause; My health and getting to a healthy weight.  


He canceled?!

I dropped Mike off at school today and headed to the gym. When I walked in, Ben waved me over. He told me that he messed up and over booked so he had to cancel and reschedule my appointment. No big deal, he is seeing me tomorrow instead. The great news is, he is giving me an extra session for free this month! YES! It really is a good sign for me when my trainer cancels a session before I do.


I really wanted to push myself today and I wanted to do my full hour of cardio while I was the gym. The first thing I did after talking to Ben was head upstairs to the treadmills. I walked for 30 minutes at a 3.5 pace.  Then I headed downstairs to the machines.  Here is how I compared to last week. These are all based off of 3 sets of 15 reps.


Work out                        Last week             This week
Chest Press                           45 lbs                       60 lbs
Pectoral Fly                          50 lbs                       50 lbs
Shoulder Press                    35 lbs                       40 lbs
Lateral Raise                        35 lbs                       35 lbs
Ab crunch                              10 lbs
Seated Dip                                                                110 lbs




After I did my strength workout I headed back upstairs and did the other 30 minutes of my cardio, at the same pace. Today I had a great workout.


I get more confident each day I walk into the gym. I'm starting to realize that people are not paying any attention to me. They are there for their themselves and that is what they are busy with. When I left the gym today I felt great! I was very proud of myself for completing my full hour of cardio.  


When I got home I didn't want to just crash on the couch until I had to pick up mike from school. Instead, I went outside and cleaned out the truck. After that, I went inside and cleaned the house. Then I had some lunch and wrote today's entry. This is all getting easier and I'm really starting to like it. I'm actually looking forward to tomorrows work out!

Week 3

Today starts week 3. I forgot to mention, I reweighed myself last week and turns out that I lost about 3 pounds. Wish it was more but it's something. I'm glad that I have made it this long. In the past I would have stopped after the first day. I would have thought, "this hurts way to much and it isn't worth it." But maybe it is worth it. If it makes me slim down and get healthier, then it is worth it. If it prolongs my life and my time with my family, then it is definitely worth it. 


I was not motivated today. When I got up this morning, I didn't want to do my cardio. Morning turned to afternoon and I still had not done my walk. I didn't forget, I just did not want to do it. I thought about it all day. I knew I needed to do it. Finally, at around 5:30pm I got on my treadmill, logged in to netflix from my kindle and started my walk. It wasn't bad at all today and it went by quicker then usual. I still have the other 30 minutes to do tonight after Mike goes to bed. 


I would really like to push myself this week. I want to push for a higher weight on the machines and even try to walk my full hour all at once. 


The eating part is starting to get a little hard too. We had people over on Saturday for a BBQ. I did eat a lot better then I used to, but I still ate more than I should have. I only had 1 burger (in the past I would eat 2). They brought chocolate cake. Oh, I love love love chocolate cake. Normally, I would eat 2 big pieces. I managed to fight the urge and only are 1 medium piece and then a tiny sliver later. It gets the hardest when I watch my husband eat more of the things we love. He gets more calories than I do, so of course, he gets to eat more. It makes me a little jealous and then I want to go into the kitchen and get more. I haven't lately. 





I got this!

I dropped Mike off at school today and headed to the gym. I did legs today and of course, my 30 minute cardio. It felt good. I like the way I feel when I leave the gym. 


Today marks my 2nd week of Strength training completed. Once I do my hour of cardio tomorrow and my other 30 minutes tonight, I will have completed 2 full weeks of my work out routine. That's a record for me. I have never kept up with a work out routine. I like this one. Well, like it or not, I'm stuck doing it at least once every 2 weeks with my trainer. So I might as well go 3 times a week to make it work while. 


Matt lucked out. It turns out that he was not able to take today and Friday off, so he was not able to go to the gym with me today. But, he is trying again (with time off) next week. I'll be dragging his fanny to the gym with me next week.


2 weeks down!!


                                  

Week 2 Day 3. I went back to the gym today. It was good. I worked on my back and shoulders (ohhh pain) then I did my 30 minute cardio. The fan adjusters on my treadmill was broken so that sucked but I kept going. It does go by so much quicker at the gym. I can't wait until I get to the point where I can just walk the full hour. 


While I was people watching today I saw this huge (all muscle I'm sure) guy, working out on the floor. His muscles are not what caught my eye. His shoes did. From where I was his shoes looked gray and pink. I thought to myself, I like those, I wonder where he got them. Yep, I wanted a pair. Then I thought to myself, no way, this guy did not go out and buy pink shoes. I made it a point to walk past him on my way out of the gym so I could check out his shoes. Sure enough, they were not pink. They were orange. 


Matt took tomorrow and Friday off from work. YAY. He has not been able to make it to the gym as much as he would like (wink) because of work. I sent him a text while I was walking.


Me: BTW, you're coming to the gym with me tomorrow.
Matt: I have a busy day planned out tomorrow.
Me: You can spare an hour. We will be done by 10:30am.
Matt: IDK...pretty busy tomorrow.
Me: LOL I love you but I wasn't asking!
Matt: :'(


I'm excited about having him join me at the gym. I would like for him to see how hard I work while I am there. He needs someone to kick his arse through the gym doors. :)




Trying...

I got on the scale this morning. No results. No add, no gain. I busted my butt last week and stayed within my daily calorie allowance but nothing happened. I was pretty bummed this morning. I thought that it was pointless to keep working hard like this when I have nothing to show for it. But, I went to the gym anyway. I'm going to keep working towards my goal even if I don't see results every week. Maybe I will see some next week.


I did my chest work outs today and struggled a little. I struggled like I did the first day I trained with Ben. I think that's a good thing. My arms started to feel like jello pretty quick. The crunches I did sucked. I hate them, but I did them and will continue to do them. 


I also did my 30 minute walk at 3.5 pace.  Doing my walk at the gym always seems to go by faster than when I am at home. Probably because I can people watch and there are 500 TV's hanging in front of me.  Of course, they all have some news station on. Discovery took her last flight today and will rest at Smithsonian. That was on the news. 


*Edit* I did my second 30 minute walk 5 minutes ago!


I wanted to post a before before picture.  This is how I was when I was 21 (7 years ago). Like I mentioned in a previous post, I never have been skinny, nor do I strive to be. I want to be a healthy weight. When I reach my goal I should be a little smaller than I was in this picture. But I would be extremely happy to be back to this point.
                                              

Week 2

I made it through my first week! The best part..I started my second week with no problems. I did the first half of my cardio this morning and will do the second half tonight.

Last week was painful. My body hurt all over but I didn't let it get me down. I know it will get easier. Everyone around me is being so supportive. Support is what you need when you reach for a goal like this. My wonderful friends have all told me how proud they are and encourage me daily to keep it up. I love them! My husband is checking with me everyday to make sure that I am sticking to my daily calorie allowance. He hates telling me now, but I appreciate him doing it. I know I snap at him sometimes when I really want to eat something that I shouldn't, but he sticks to it. I love him (there is a lot of love in this post lol).

My mother in law sent me a funny email that I have to share, I laughed so hard. Luckily, my week was not this bad and hopefully it will not get to this point. Hehe.
Dear Diary,
For my birthday this year, I purchased a week of personal training at the local health club.


Although I am still in great shape since being a high school football cheerleader 43 years ago, I decided it would be a good idea to go ahead and give it a try.


I called the club and made my reservations with a personal trainer named Christo, who identified himself as a 26-year-old aerobics instructor and model for athletic clothing and swim wear.


Friends seemed pleased with my enthusiasm to get started! The club encouraged me to keep a diary to chart my progress.

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MONDAY:
Started my day at 6:00 a.m. Tough to get out of bed, but found it was well worth it when I arrived at the health club to find Christo waiting for me. He is something of a Greek god-- with blond hair, dancing eyes, and a dazzling white smile.  Woo Hoo!!

Christo gave me a tour and showed me the machines.  I enjoyed watching the skillful way in which he conducted his aerobics class after my workout today. Very inspiring!

Christo was encouraging as I did my sit-ups, although my gut was already aching from holding it in the whole time he was around. This is going to be a FANTASTIC week!!
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TUESDAY:
I drank a whole pot of coffee, but I finally made it out the door.  Christo made me lie on my back and push a heavy iron bar into the air then he put weights on it!  My legs were a little wobbly on the treadmill, but I made the full mile.  His rewarding smile
 made it all worthwhile. I feel GREAT!  It's a whole new life for me.
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WEDNESDAY:
The only way I can brush my teeth is by laying the toothbrush on the counter and moving my mouth back and forth over it.  I believe I have a hernia in both pectorals.  Driving was OK as long as I didn't try to steer or stop. I parked on top of a GEO in the
 club parking lot.

Christo was impatient with me, insisting that my screams bothered other club members.  His voice is a little too perky for that early in the morning and when he scolds, he gets this nasally whine that is VERY annoying.

My chest hurt when I got on the treadmill, so Christo put me on the stair monster.  Why would anyone invent a machine to simulate an activity rendered obsolete by elevators?  Christo told me it would help me get in shape and enjoy life.  He said some other
 crap too.
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THURSDAY:
Butt hole was waiting for me with his vampire-like teeth exposed as his thin, cruel lips were pulled back in a full snarl.  I couldn't help being a half an hour late-- it took me that long to tie my shoes.

He took me to work out with dumbbells. When he was not looking, I ran and hid in the restroom.  He sent some skinny witch to find me.

Then, as punishment, he put me on the rowing machine-- which I sank.
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FRIDAY:
I hate that jackass Christo more than any human being has ever hated any other human being in the history of the world. Stupid, skinny, anemic, anorexic, little aerobics instructor.  If there was a part of my body I could move without unbearable pain, I would
 beat him with it.

Christo wanted me to work on my triceps.  I don't have any triceps!  And if you don't want dents in the floor, don't hand me the darn barbells or anything that weighs more than a sandwich.

The treadmill flung me off and I landed on a health and nutrition teacher.  Why couldn't it have been someone softer, like the drama coach or the choir director?
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SATURDAY:
Satan left a message on my answering machine in his grating, shrilly voice wondering why I did not show up today.  Just hearing his voice made me want to smash the machine with my planner; however, I lacked the strength to even use the TV remote and ended up
 catching eleven straight hours of the Weather Channel..
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SUNDAY:
I'm having the Church van pick me up for services today so I can go and thank GOD that this week is over.  I will also pray that next year my husband will choose a gift for me that is fun-- like a root canal or a hysterectomy.  I still say if God had wanted
 me to bend over, he would have sprinkled the floor with diamonds!!!

I am starting week 2 with the same positive mentality as week 1. My weigh in is tomorrow (since I started on a Tuesday). I'm nervous to find out the results. I hope I at least lost a couple pounds so that I won't get discouraged. I don't expect to get on the scale and see that I have lost 10 lbs. I know that won't happen. Again, just a couple pounds will make me happy. 

I start back to the gym tomorrow for more strength work outs. I'm actually looking forward to it. It's funny, the work outs that make my body hate me for the rest of the week, don't bother me. It's the walking that I dread. I do it at a 3.5 pace for 30 minutes. I have to really push myself to complete it. Really, it's only the first 20 minutes that bother me. By the last 10, my legs are used to it. 

Here is my week: Today: 1hr Cardio
                            Tuesday: Chest/Shoulder + 1hr Cardio
                            Wednesday: Back + 1hr Cardio
                            Thursday: Legs + 1hr Cardio
                            Friday: 1hr Cardio

I made it through 1 week, I will make through the rest!
                                                            

Sometimes I Need a Kick in the Arse.

What has two thumbs and did not want to do cardio today? This girl right here (pointing thumbs at myself)!I'll be honest. I did not want to walk today. My body hurts all over, especially my legs, and I'm cramping. Who wants to work out when they are cramping, NOT ME! But...I did it anyway. 


I had to really force myself to do my cardio today. To make it worse, I have another 30 minutes to do later. I do an hour a day  but I split it up.  


Staying motivated is hard right now. From where I am sitting, it's all pain and no gain. I know, I know, I just started. I know I will see results and my body will get used to it. I just have to keep it up. If I quit now, this week of pain will have been for nothing. I have never (in my 20's) been 150 lbs (my goal). That should be my motivation. I need to stick to this, I benefit so much from the end results.


It Hurts So Good

Day 3:
I went back to the gym this morning after starting my blog, like I said I would. I worked out my back and did 30 minutes of cardio. 


My body hurts. My arms and chest are so sore from Tuesday's work out. It hurt to change the station on the car radio. It hurt to pick up my water bottle to take a sip. It hurts to tie my shoes. Oddly enough, nothing hurt while I was using the machines at the gym. I know it's all a good hurt. My body is pissed at me right now but it will thank me 6 months from now. 


While I was on the treadmill I began arguing with myself. I did this mentally, if I did it out loud people might think I was a nut. After my first 5 minutes (at a brisk pace) I told myself that I would stop at 15 minutes, do another 15 minutes after I picked my son up from school and then do my other 30 after his bed time. At the 10 minute mark I decided to push it to 20 minutes and stop. Once I got to 15 minutes I told myself that I was half way done and I would try to complete the whole 30. 20 minutes in I decided that I could and WOULD finish my 30 minutes. By the time I had reached 25 minutes I was counting down.. 4 minutes left, 3 minutes left... I'm glad that I did the full 30 minutes.


After my workout I saw Ben and asked him if he would look at my work outs and let me know if they were okay to do again next week (since he only trains me twice a month). Not only did he look at my log, but he wrote down 3 days worth of work outs for me to do next week. I really like that he is actually concerned about my goals. I was worried that I would get a trainer that would give me my work out and then shrug me off the rest of the time.


My Journey Begins

I have never in my life been skinny, nor do I ever want to be. I want to be a healthy weight that looks good on my frame, curvy I guess. I wish I could say that the reason for all my extra weight was because I quit smoking. Let's be honest, that wasn't the main factor that contributed to my weight gain. Yes, I did quit smoking which made me want to eat when I wanted a cigarette. But, I could have walked. Heck, I have a dog, I could have walked her instead of just taking her out to do her business and going back in. Laziness was my big problem. Laziness is what caused me to gain all the weight that I did. I also gained some weight when I got pregnant with my son, but after giving birth I was only left with 10 extra pounds.

About a year ago my husband and I started using Myfitnesspal to keep track of our calorie intake. We both lost 30 lbs each. YAY. Then we moved... We decided to give ourselves a free weekend since we were moving and didn't really have the stuff we needed to prepare actual meals. That weekend turned into months. Once we fell off track, it was so hard to get back on. 

A few weeks ago, I talked my husband into getting us a gym membership. I don't know how I managed to convince him. I had already talked him into buying a $400.00 treadmill that I did not use as often as I said I would. When you sign up at LAFitness you get a free "training assessment". This is how they try to get you to sign up for a personal trainer. I went in for my assessment and had my free session. WHEW he gave me a heck of a work out, but, I felt really good afterwards. If I was still single, I would have signed up right then and there. But, since I'm married (and I have learned my lesson in getting ripped off), I needed to talk to my husband first. After talking, we decided that I wasn't a good idea at the time. We had vacation coming up and other bills to pay. I agreed.

My first day back to the gym, after my assessment, was terrible. Despite talking to a friend before hand, who had given me a whole list of work outs, I felt lost. I had no idea what to do or how to do it. I felt like an idiot wandering around the gym. What's worse, I felt like everyone was staring at me and wondering, "what is this idiot doing". For me, that is one of the worst things about being overweight. I always feel like people are staring at me and judging me. While there are a lot of people out there who do in fact do that, I know that not everyone is like that. After wandering around like a lost puppy, I gave up, went upstairs, did my cardio and left. After that day, I made an excuse not to go back the next day. Finally, my husband sat me down and we talked about it. He then decided that he would talk to the management and see what other deals they offer for training. He ended up talking them down in price and signed me up to receive 2 training sessions a month. I love that man!

My first real training session was on Tuesday. My trainers name was Ben. What a great guy. Not only did he discuss everything with me, but he made sure I had what I needed to be able to work out without him. I got this  "handy dandy" notebook to log all of my workouts in. He even wrote down what work outs I should do on the days when I am not training with him. His plan for me, 2-3 days of strength and 4 hours of cardio a week. I was so confident after my first session that I went back yesterday and did my work out without any issues. I worked out my legs and then did 30 minutes of cardio. Later that night, after my son was in bed, I did another 30 minutes of cardio. Once I finish this entry, I'm going back again.

I have a lot of positive, supportive people in my life, which really helps me. I also know that the world has it's share of negative nellys. People need to remember that no matter what size someone is, they have feelings and you don't know what they are going through in their lives. I am tired of paying extra for clothes because they charge more for plus sizes.I'm tired of being out of breath when I try to teach my daughter how to ride a bike.

I am making a change!



Starting weight: 242 lbs (4/10/12)
Goal weight: 150 lbs
 


 

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